Chapter 23
Sienna!
I ran my fingers through my hair, gently brushing it as I forced myself to ignore the pain that I felt in my chest, knowing that
tonight was going to be one that was difficult for me.
My girl.
My little angel.
I could feel her whimpers, and I could feel her calling for me, and yet, I also knew that I couldn’t help her. I knew that I couldn’t
approach her, nor could I allow myself to take a step toward her to protect her.
If I could, if I did, I knew that I wouldn’t step down until I had her in my arms. And I knew that it wasn’t going to be in her benefit
no matter how much I wanted it to be.
The door opened, revealing Alpha Kael, his eyes met mine for a moment before he looked down at his feet as he stepped inside. He
closed the door behind him, leaving the two of us alone in the room
“Yes, Alpha?” I asked, and he looked away from me.
“I was told that you allowed your daughter in an incubator. That you did not fight, and that you are not speaking. You are keeping
yourself calm, and you are keeping yourself quiet about everything that is going on. May I ask why?” He asked, and looking away
from him, I took a deeper breath than I knew to be necessary.
“I don’t have a reason to keep fighting. I cannot stand against him, and I cannot keep putting her in in harms way. She needs this, and had it been any other way, I would have fought. But I know that if I keep fighting, she is just going to be hurt. She might grow hurt, and I know that Damon wants me to fight back. At this point, I am not in the mood for that. I do not want to keep doing that,
nor do I want to keep things the way that they are.” I said, looking at Alpha Kacl.
“You have to fight for your daughter. It is what a mother should do.” He said, and I looked away from him. It pained me, but I
knew that he was right.
“A mother should fight for her child, that is correct. But Isla does not need me as a mother. She needs a mother who is capable of what she is going to be able to do. I am not that mother, and I can never be that person. I can never be the person who would stand by her side and raise her the way that I should.” I said, forcing myself to ignore the pain that I was feeling with each word that I was saying. I forced myself to take a breath, and I forced myself to stand, knowing that this was going to be the most painful thing that I was going to have to deal with. “It is hard for me to stand knowing that my girl is not beside me, and I know, right now, no matter how things are going to be, I know that I am not fit to mother the Alpha’s daughter,”
“Then why did you keep her?” He asked, and I closed my eyes as I let out a low growl.
He did not say a word for a few moments, but when I opened my eyes to meet his, he shook his head at me, waiting for my
response.
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“I wasn’t going to let my child pay for the mistake that I made. I wasn’t going to take my child’s life because she has a father like
Damon. A father that wouldn’t have wanted her to be around. He would have rather had me die…”
“Had he wanted you dead, he wouldn’t have spared you. He would have had your head.” He said, stopping me. “Mind you, anyone in his place would have been angry with you. However, he chose to spare your life. He chose to spare everything about you and is still choosing to do so.”
“I do not need him to spare me. He can have my life. However, if my daughter is the one who is going to be living within this place and then I am going to be staying by her side, I’m not going to be separated from her.” I said, and he raised an eyebrow.
“He already did separate you from her and you did not argue. He took her right in front of you…”
“Because if I fought back, it would have been more dangerous for her. Regardless of what you might think right now, regardless. of what you want me to understand, I know for a fact that your son does not give a damn about me. If I fought back, he would have used that as an excuse against me.” I said, ignoring everything that I was feeling, knowing that he wanted me to get my humanity back. He saw me shutting it off, he saw it in my eyes, but that was not something that I wanted to give him.
The alpha had crossed his line. Damon had made sure to turn off whatever was left of me. Whatever insanity I had in me was
related to my daughter. And I knew that he understood that very well. That was why he chose to do it the way that he did.
“Damon knows what he is doing, and Damon is well aware of everything that h
he is playing with. However, it does not concern him. He does not even give a damn. He does not care.” I said, looking at Alpha Kael “You know for a fact that he does not care
about me.”
“That is not true, Sienna.”
“The two of us know that it is, Let’s be very realistic about this. If it was not for you, would your son have looked for me? Would
he have cared about doing so? If not for you, would he have bothered searching for me day and night? Would he have bothered sending his men after me? Would he have found me himself? If not for you, nothing would have happened. If not for you, I would have still been away. Maybe I would have given birth to a stillborn. Yes, I will admit that much. Maybe I am not fit to be her
mother in terms of being able to protect her the way that I should be. But I know for a fact that if it was not for you, he wouldn’t
have done so. He wouldn’t have done anything about this. He wouldn’t have cared.” I said, looking the alpha dead in the eye. “I do not mean to cross you, nor do I mean to challenge you, Alpha. All I mean for you is to understand what I’m going through is to understand that this is not something that is easy for me. However, it is easy for your son. Why? Because your son does not even
want me around. The faster you understand that better she’s going to be.”
“And did you understand it?” He asked, and I shook my head.
“If I did, I wouldn’t have slept with him the night that I did. If I did, I wouldn’t have allowed him in my life in the first place. Trusting him was my fault. The rest lies on him.” I said, taking a deep breath. “Now if you would excuse me, I would like to rest.
The doctor said that I can be cleared and I can leave this room in the morning only if I can get some rest tonight…”
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