Chapter 31
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11 fake a smile and walk to the bar, I wait in line with a full drink in my hand.[]
“Everything right?” Mark asks from beside me.
1 glance up. “Why wouldn’t it be?“||
“You thought that was Violet Coleman, in’t you?” “Who?” Lact oblivious.
“You know, I hate seeing your face fall every time you see a redhead.“||
zah well. There are a lot of things I hate about you,” I drain my glass and slosh it around in my mouth before swallowing. “Stop watching me and get back to
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“Last time I looked my job is watching you.” the winks.]
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He saunders back to his place by the wall and 1 step forward in line to the bar and drag my hand through my hair as I wait
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“We’re going to get going, sweetheart.” Mom kisses my forehead.|||
- y. Violet, Dad says as he looks lovingly down at the babies in their crib beside my bed. “You did good, baby.“[]
“Well done today.
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“Thank you so much for being in the delivery room with me. I kiss my mom as she leans over me and then my dad. I’m so grateful for you two.”
“We’ll be back first thing tomorrow.” Dad smiles as he adjusts the baby’s little blue bonnet “You be good babies for your momina tonight,” he tells them, and with one last smile, they disappear down the corridor.]
Tr’s midnight, and the maternity ward has fallen quiet. My room is dark and it only by the strip lighting in the bathroom.
For the first time I’m left alone with my two babies, fraternal twins, a linde boy and a little girl. Wrapped nightly in their little inny rugs and snugged in together in the one crib.]
I’m having this weird out of body experience, it’s as i
as if I’m hovering
hingering way up above an
and watching the three of a Together at last but then so alone.
hudad here to welcome them into the world, to condor me, or to tell us it’s going to be okay Words that I so desperately need to hear
Now that they’ve arrived and are real life little people, my deception sees all too rent ||
I’m a bad person, I should have told him
My nostrils flare as I try to keep it together, the lump in my throat is painful. It’s like I’ve been holding in tears for nine months and the glue that held me Ingetter is disintegrating before my ryn
This is a happy day I will not try ||
“Hry” a nurse say
urse says as the walks through the door. “Are you of
“yes” 1 whisper. “Big day, bosh” I n
(okay, darling?” She counes and sits on lys side of my bed and taken my hand in hers |
“Are you in
won’t be a hero, Violet, c sections are painful, and you need to be rested before you go home alone with these babies.” Hume alone
Hearing it out inud lirsks the dam and I screw up my fare in tears. “Oh sweetie, tomorrow will seem a lot brighter. I promise.” I nod, unable to answer through
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she i rads my chart and polls some pills from her pocket. “Here’s what we’re going to do.” She passes me the pills. “You’re going to have these and try a some test, and Fin guùng to sit in that chair in the corner and watch over you and your habies while you sleep.“]
“hut nothing, you won’t be alone tonight,” she seprezes my hand in hers, the tears milling down my face. “I won’t leave you, I promise.”
“Thank you,” I whisper. I take the fallets and the back ilovey and she pulls the blankets up over me and tucks me in.]
are you going in name your habues?“||
thrung unuste. “Something
**Their father la Balian?” I nod||
she gives lie
chid smile, finally understanding why I’m upset|||
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She sits on the side of my bed and rests her hand on my shoulder, such a simple act of kindness that meas so much, “What are your favorite names?” “Dominic
She smiles down at me. “They sound like the perfect names.“]
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“You’re going to be fine, darling, and you’re going to find the love of your life and he’s going to love your habies just as much as you do. 1 screw up my face in tears again, damn it. I’m unstable.||
“Close your eyes and go to sleep, her loving voice whispers, she rushes her hand over my hur. Tomorrow’s new day.“]
