Regrets (Part 1)
Sebastian’s POV
I sat on the hard bench in the hospital hallway, my knee bouncing with nervous energy as I waited for Thea to arrive. She was going to be pissed, no doubt about it, but i couldn’t stop this overwhelming need to be by her side, to do something anything for her.
She’d refused to tell me when her appointment was, so I’d pulled rank as Alpha to get the information. Yeah, that made me a complete asshole since I kept crossing boundaries, but as an Alpha, I was used to getting what I wanted. And right now, all I wanted was to be
near her.
I would’ve picked her up myself if I could, but considering I was already going against her wishes, I decided to just wait at the hospital.
It was fucking ridiculous how nervous I felt. The last time I’d been this anxious was during my first full shift at fourteen, when I had no idea what the hell I was doing. I nearly hurted Damien during training because I couldn’t control my strength,
I pushed those memories aside and focused on the entrance, watching intently, I’d arrived carly, knowing I’d have to wait a while before seeing her.
“Sebastian? What are you doing here?” Her voice yanked me back to reality,
I didn’t know how long I’d been sitting on that bench, lost in thought, not even noticing
her arrival.
I turned to face her, and holy shit, my breath caught in my throat. She was so goddamn beautiful without even trying. I mentally kicked myself again for ever thinking she couldn’t compare to Aurora.
Some might say it was the pregnancy glow, but I disagreed. Aurora wore makeup every single day. If she thought she don’t look perfect, she wouldn’t even leave the house.
Thea was completely different. She didn’t need all that shit. I’d seen her these past weeks with dark circles under her eyes and bare–faced, but never had she looked more perfect to
- me.
I cleared my throat and answered, “I said I’d be at every appointment with you.”
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I watched a dark cloud pass over her face. She was angry, looked like she was about to blow up at me, but honestly, I didn’t give a fuck.
My eyes shamelessly traveled up and down her body. She wore a form–fitting dress that showed off her curves, fuller now with pregnancy. When my gaze returned to those enchanting eyes, she opened her mouth, and I knew she was about to tell me off and ask me to leave. Before she could get a word out, I stood up, gently cupped her face with my hand, pulled her close, and pressed a kiss to her forehead.
She froze completely, clearly shocked by my action.
My lips lingered on her skin for a moment. I knew I should pull away, but it felt too fucking right. If I hadn’t been so stupid and stubborn, this could have been us all along.
I gently released her. Her eyes were wide, her mouth slightly open in shock.
“What the fuck are you doing, Sebastian?” she demanded when she came to her senses,
anger filling her voice. “Why are you acting like this?”
“Because I wanted to. So I did,” I shrugged in response.
Before she could say anything, the nurse called her name. She gave me a furious glare
before storming away. I followed behind her, a smile playing at my lips.
Arriving at the doctor’s office, we found everything prepared and ready.
“Good to see you, Thea,” Dr. Harper smiled, then turned to me, “And you too, Alpha
Ashworth.”
“You as well, Dr. Harper,” Thea responded while I just nodded.
I was surprised to find that Dr. Harper was the same doctor from when Thea was pregnant
with Leo. She had delivered him and now she would do the same for this pup.
“You know the drill, dear, go change over there and then come back so we can see how our
little sprout is doing.”
Thea took the examination gown and walked to the changing room. A few minutes later
she emerged and lay down on the bed.
“Today we’ll do a transvaginal ultrasound first, then the regular scan,” Dr. Harper said.
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“Is there something I should be worried about?” Thea asked, her voice tinged with anxiety.
“No, this is just what I do with all my patients. Just making sure the cervix is healthy,” she smiled at Thea. “Now, I’m going to insert this, and if you feel uncomfortable, let me know,
okay?”
Thea nodded. She might have forgotten, but I’d seen her naked before.
She raised her legs, and Dr. Harper went to work. After finishing, she did the regular scan,
then turned off the machine.
“Everything looks good. You and the baby are both healthy. I’m glad this pregnancy is easier than it was with Leo,” Dr. Harper said as Thea sat up.
“What do you mean? Compared to Leo? Did she have difficulties with him?” Fuck, what
had I missed while I was busy drowning in bourbon mourning the loss of Aurora?
Regrets (Part 2)
Sebastian’s POV
Dr. Harper was about to speak, but Thea quickly cut her off.
“It was nothing,” Thea rushed to say, but I knew she was lying because her voice pitched higher at the end.
Then she jumped off the bed and practically ran into the changing room.
Dr. Harper gave me a sad smile before leaving the room. A few minutes later, Thea came back fully dressed. She left without a word, and I followed her like a lost pup.
We arrived at the front desk. She received her date for the next appointment and two ultrasound pictures of the baby.
My phone rang, and I answered distractedly.
“What is it?”
I knew who the second picture was for. Kane. I hated that she was in contact with him, but I also admired her maturity. If I had been in her situation, I would’ve completely
isolated the child from Kane.
Thea was a fucking angel. She chose to do the right thing with both Leo and the pup she was carrying now. After all, during our seven years of marriage, I hadn’t exactly been a
saint, but she still allowed me access to Leo. She never even said a bad word about me to him, despite me being a complete asshole to her.
“Alpha, the Redstone Pack delegation has arrived. They’re insisting on meeting with you,”
Callista said.
“I thought they weren’t due until next week.”
“They were. That was the arrangement, but they just showed up.”
I groaned in frustration. I hated having my plans disrupted. It pissed me off when people couldn’t stick to a schedule.
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“I’m not changing my plans because they suddenly decided to come early. They can wait until I’m done with what I’m doing, or they can leave and come back at their goddamn appointed time.”
These guys had been a pain in my ass since they first approached us. They were eager for cooperation and alliance, and usually when someone is that eager, it’s not a good sign. I’d been considering dropping them entirely, but Damien told me to give them a chance.
“Uh–okay. I’ll relay the message.”
I hung up after that. I turned around to see Thea walking out of the clinic.
“Who’s got you so angry?” she asked with a smirk, seemingly enjoying seeing me pissed off.
“Just got a call from Callista about some people from another Pack.”
I saw her face fall at the mention of Callista. A dark cloud passed over her features.
“You really should fire her. Callista is a fucking bitch, not just to me but to everyone she thinks is beneath her.”
I smiled. “I’ve already disciplined her and made her apologize to you.”
“When?”
“After the night of the dinner. I didn’t like the way she talked about you.”
She looked shocked. I mean, Callista had been my Liaison for years. I just hadn’t known she was a complete bitch. No, scratch that–I hadn’t cared that she was a complete bitch
to Thea.
My smile faded as I realized how I’d let others and myself disrespect her. She had been my
Luna, the mother of my heir. I should never have allowed those things to happen.
She was silent, just looking at me like she couldn’t figure me out.
“What did Dr. Harper mean when she talked about your first pregnancy?” I remembered
what was said in the clinic.
“Can’t you just drop it? It doesn’t matter, Leo is healthy now, and everything turned out
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fine. It’s all in the past,” she looked away, but I heard the catch in her voice and knew talking about this was painful for her.
“Thea? Tell me. I want to know,” I pressed. I was desperate.
Being at these appointments with her made me realize how much I’d missed during her pregnancy with Leo. I hadn’t even heard his heartbeat for the first time.
Her eyes flashed with anger, masking the hint of pain I saw there.
“Tell you what, Sebastian? Tell you I was an eighteen–year–old pregnant girl, scared and alone? Tell you that sometimes my blood pressure would spike and I’d end up hospitalized because of the stress? Tell you that the constant hatred from my family, my husband, and the Pack was too much, so I became depressed? Or tell you that Dr. Harper said with my health deteriorating the way it was, there was a chance my pup wouldn’t
make it?”
She took a deep breath before continuing: “I barely saw you at home, and when you did come back, all you did was tell me how much you hated me. I gave you an out, but you didn’t take it, and god, I wish I had fought harder to get away from all of you. You told me you hated me, not realizing that even though I loved you, I hated you just as much. Going to that bar was a mistake. And you, Sebastian, were the biggest mistake of my life, but the problem is I can’t take it back, and I wouldn’t if I could because that would mean I wouldn’t have Leo, and I will never regret having him.”
“Now, if you’re done rehashing the past and opening wounds I’m trying to heal, I’m leaving. Have a fucking great day because you just ruined mine,” she said before turning
to leave.
couldn’t believe we almost lost Leo. My abuse and everyone else’s had caused her health to deteriorate. We were all so busy hating her while she suffered alone. Knowing I played a part in breaking her heart shattered mine.
I watched her get into her car. My heart contracted as I realized what a bastard I’d been. I hadn’t realized it at the time, but it wasn’t just me who was suffering. I refused to see her side, refused to see her pain. She was only eighteen, for Moon’s sake.
She drove away. I watched her car until it disappeared from sight.
I ran my hand through my hair, the severity of the pain and hurt I’d caused her hitting me
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like a ton of bricks. There was so much pain in her voice, so much anger, How the fuck was 1 ever going to make this up to her?
